Monday, September 12, 2016

Matwork - check!

The first three weeks and six classes are behind us and therefore we completed our mat-section of the program. We had a little (2-hour) verbal and practical test at the end of it and now we won't be seeing or hearing much of mat pilates until our final test out in November/December. Time flies (although three weeks don't seem terribly long), but I want to say that I'm keeping up nicely. Although my practice teaching sessions and observation hours could use some more, consistent attention. Collecting hours in general seems like it'll be a drag.

I also don't feel all too comfortable with the mat content itself. I know the exercises, the breathing is starting to come more naturally, but I'm far from confident about it. Teaching my classmate is one thing, she knows what she's supposed to be doing, so my cueing doesn't make much of a difference. Whenever I practiced teaching on a Pilates newbie, I had a ton of trouble getting her to do what I wanted her to do, without showing too much myself. I'm hoping that it'll all come together once I start teaching more, but as of right now I feel very unsure.

I want to skip this whole part and just be that gracious and elegant, confident instructor that glides through the room and owns their practice. I just want to get to the point where I know what I'm doing and where I'm not terrified of doing something wrong. I know, I know, that's how I'll learn, but it's still no fun. And my tendency to blushing and panicking isn't helpful either. 

I'm hoping that the reformer content of the program will make it all better. Altogether I can't wait to become the teacher I know I can be.